Selfish vs Self-knowledge

I had coffee with my dear friend over the weekend. And I’d made comment that there were no men on the table (or something to that effect), and I started talking about how I’ve been trying to really embrace this time in my life and not be upset or discouraged that I haven’t met the…

Living in Freedom

I believe I’ve mentioned a time or two that I pulled away and took a step back from what we call covenant community this year. Covenant community is more less intentionally sharing life with a particular group of people. Or at least that is how my experience has shaped my defining phrase. I struggled a…

Be Healed

Monday’sGospel hit right to the core. For the last 6 mos I have really struggled. Struggled to believe if God existed, and if he did exist that he was good and had our best interest in mind. For even longer I struggled with a desire to go to mass. I started realizing that so much…

If Not for Mary

If not for Mary, if not for Mary, if not for Mary. The line came to me as I was in that dangerous place of sleeping to being awake. That dangerous time in a day when some of my deepest thoughts come. I knew it was meant for my next blog post. If not for…

Through the Eyes of a New Nurse

Tonight I was taking my trash out and the dumpster is a bit of a hike so I had some time to think. I was talking to some of my friends from nursing school today and one of them was mentioning not wanting to see her family for Easter tomorrow because she’s just so exhausted,…

Doing the Best we Can

  Maybe, just maybe we’re all doing the best we can with what we’ve got.  In her book Rising Strong, Brene Brown shares a story about a speaking engagement she does rather begrudgingly and she gets a roommate who seems to be a messy person (it’s Ch 6 if you’re curious). When Brown returns from…

Rend Your Hearts

Yet even now return to me – return to me with your whole heart, with fasting, weeping and mourning. Rend your hearts not your garments, and return to the Lord your God, for He is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, abounding in steadfast love… Joel 2:12-13 As we’re 5 days into lent I’ve been…

Only By Grace

A couple months ago I was talking with my mentor. And I was telling her that going to church was really hard. I didn’t want to pray. I didn’t want to go to mass. I had one day off a week and I wanted to spend it in my underwear watching tv – I didn’t…

Lessons in Unconditional Love

Lately, it seems, Jesus is teaching me more and more about what it means to not only love unconditionally, but to be loved unconditionally. My more stubborn nature often makes me less receptive to love people want to offer me. My life’s story and some of the ways I have been hurt make me less…

Learning to Dance in the Rain

Life is hard and transitions suck. Graduating college was great, but the period of transition following is hard. Harder than I expected. Because not only am I transitioning, but the lives of the people around me are all transitioning too and we’re not transitioning together, but each in our own ways. Something I have realized…

JOY and Trusting Acceptance

With the new year being only a few days away I have found myself thinking about New Year’s Resolutions. There’s a part of me that actually hates the new year’s resolution bandwagon, I have even written about it in the past. My qualm with it is that I feel like life changes should not be limited…

To the Woman Who Wonders if She’ll Ever be Enough

As women, I think our self-worth is attacked so much. Many of us have, at one point or another, experienced a feeling of being “too much to handle” and “not enough” all at the same time. We feel like we’re too broken for somebody to love, we’re too needy, we’re too much work. Or we…