Living the Dream

Today in my facebook memories this photo showed up – my first time putting on my purple scrubs and my last first day of clinical. I made a sappy facebook post about it (classic). I remember being so excited ordering those stinking purple scrubs and putting them on for the first time, not even to…

Almost Three Months In

In a week it will be 3 weeks since I was unleashed as a nurse and started night shift. People tend to ask me how’s it going, which is a question that can have a different answer depending on the day. So here’s a couple things I can tell you I am constantly amazed by my…

Do You See Exciting Stuff?

My least favorite and most frequently asked questioned when people find out I’m an ER nurse is “do you exciting things all the time?” My answer is no. No I don’t see exciting stuff all the time. Most of my patients are belly pain, chest pain, chronic problems and people frustrated and exhausted with their…

Through the Eyes of a New Nurse

Tonight I was taking my trash out and the dumpster is a bit of a hike so I had some time to think. I was talking to some of my friends from nursing school today and one of them was mentioning not wanting to see her family for Easter tomorrow because she’s just so exhausted,…

Doing the Best we Can

  Maybe, just maybe we’re all doing the best we can with what we’ve got.  In her book Rising Strong, Brene Brown shares a story about a speaking engagement she does rather begrudgingly and she gets a roommate who seems to be a messy person (it’s Ch 6 if you’re curious). When Brown returns from…

That’s All Folks 

Friday was a momenteous day for me. After 5 and a half years I walked out of the gates at capital university for the last time as a student and it felt so good. As excited as I am for what’s next I can’t believe it’s finally over.  I thought about doing a sappy Facebook…

These Hands

A couple weeks ago I found myself thinking about all these hands have done in my short 23 years of life. I was largely reflecting on the work they’ve done in the hospital. These hands have done chest compressions trying to save a life These hands have wiped tears while patients cried They have rubbed…

Letting Go of Perfectionism

About a month ago I went to confession. I had the option to do face to face or to go behind a screen. I opted to go face-to-face and it was maybe one of the best decisions I have made. As I went through my sins the priest could see my facial expressions and see…

A Change in Mission

This semester has been – hmm – insane. It’s been so good. I love my clinical. I don’t mind class (maybe my perspective skewed because graduation is less than 50 days away so I don’t care all too much). I love my preceptor. But it has been busy, so busy and so hard in different…

They Don’t Deserve to Live

Based on the title of this, you may be thinking to yourself “uh-oh, she’s getting on her soapbox”. Let me clarify, it’s my soapbox because I think it’s really important to talk about the dignity of the human person despite what their decisions may be. Let me start by saying I am in the Emergency…

Reflections on Death

As an almost registered nurse, death doesn’t terrify me or freak me out. It’s a normal part of life for me. It’s the population of patients I want to work with eventually – those who are in the active dying stage, as we call it. I worked with cancer patients and I had several that…

The Only Way

“Broken things are precious. We eat broken bread because we share in the depth of our Lord and His broken life. Broken flowers give perfume. Broken incense is used in adoration. A broken ship saved Paul and many other passengers on their way to Rome. Sometimes the only way the good Lord can get into…